He's not mine

Eh ujan grmis aje..
Yeah,net kntor eror.nybelin bgt ya.mn krjaan dh klar dr jam12siang.maen game bosen,game over mulu.ha3x..plg aj mw tdr.mumpung hawany mendung2,kdg grmis kdg terang,brawan dsb..yg bkin mata pgn merem aja.
Mpe kosan bkny bu2 mlh gbs tdr..bdn pns..halah,nybelin dh knp pykt slu dtg dsaat gw g mbthkny..(pi2s dl ah)
brr..dgin..gw rapetin slimut..gw psg headset pas lguna avril,keep holdin'on. Oh no,pliz..skr gw lg muak n pgn dgrn lgu2 yg mengutuk kaum laki2.lelaki buaya drt?hufh?ga dh,lagu gedombrengan gt. Finally chris brown-with u(loh?)bhrp da co yg blg ke gw: 'cause if i got u i don't need money,i don't need cars,girl,u're my all..(gombal bgt nh,mas brown..)
gw tsnyum,bdn gw msh pns,tp seegany psgny g bgt2 ky td, su2 fullcream ultra du2k mns di meja,bhrp gw menjamahnya.."oh..jgn skr dh..gw pgn c ngbsin lo,tp mlut gw mls bwt bgrak.."
>>yovie n the nuno,inginku bkn jd tmanmu<<
lagu lm,tp pny knangan ga tlupakan.haiyah..jd geli sndri.
Next>>walking away<<
-the opposite of me..gw ttp stag dsni,hufh.. -
-next>>why<<
why,do u always do this to me?
Why,couldn't u just see it through me?
How come,u act like this like u just don't care at all..
Do u expect me 2 believe,i was the only1to fall..
I can feel u near me,even though u're far away.. I can feel u baby,why..?
It's not supposed to feel this way,i need u,i need u..more n more each day..
Next>>since u've been gone<<
next>>behind these hazel eyes<<
aiih..buat km bgt c,ni lagu2..
Hufh!prgi lo jauh2 dr gw..nyesel gw knal lo,lo udh bkin idup gw tmbah complicated n bwt gw bnci dri gw sndri..
Bye..

-let me alone -

Dari smlm kata demi kata tlh mbuatq tjepit.tlah mbuatq thmpit.
Otak gw kacau mkin urat sarafna udh ky bnang ruwet. N pagi harina,ups,siang hari tpatna,gw tbgun,gw ga mo ngaca dl y gw udh sadar diri psti muka gw udh ga mirip gw lg.mata belo,bkn,bkn,mata bengkak tpatny.gw buru2 mandi tdk lp mgosok gi2.hbs mandi srpn plus mkn siang.hp esia bdering kncengsuara bapak2 nan lemah tp tegas n bnada marah pastiny.ttg tlp gw smlm..gw cm iya2 n mta maaf.
Hei,PAK BAKRIE!Esia jgn srg eror dunk!gni nih akbtny,gw kna maki org,ga sopanlah,apa lah.
Mood gw lgsung trun drastis plgi si Bpk blg srentetan kbhongan ankny ke gw.
Hufh..gw amat sgt ilfil,pala gw pusing.gw bkar si sexy Niko!gw isep dg pnuh pghayatan,bharap gw bs hdp lbh tnang.n bhrap MUI ga tau apa yg gw lakuin.dada gw sesak,napas gw mburu,tangis gw tahan, gw ga prlu menangs lg.gw ga ingin nangs lg.
Shrusny sgl yg tlh gw alami dr kcil bwt gw survivor.n shrusny tiap org2 yg prg dr gw ga prl bkin air mata gw ngucur ga brenti2.
Let me alone..biarin gw ngadepin hdp gw tanpa elu,elu ataupun elu.krn lo smua udh bwt hdp gw ga da hargany,ga da artinya n smkin sengsara.

Missing my dad..

Ha3x..
Gw pgn t'tawa,pgn trtawa skras2nya..tp knpa air mata gw ttp ngalir.gw cm ktwa pas nton spongebob doank.skr spongebob dh klar,gw nton tv1 mlh smkin deres air mata gw ngliat brta ttg palestina.nton suami2tkt istri mlah yg da gw bolot sktika,coz isiny cm triak2mulu.(tayangan paling ga bgus bwt ditonton ank2 n ibu2muda).
Gw kangen bapak.
-that's all-
*kl dbhs lbh lnjt bs bkin gw nyusul bokap gw